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Be Still

Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for Him; fret not yourself over the one who prospers in his way, over the man who carries out evil devices! Psalm 37:7 ESV It feels like nothing’s happening. I pray and wait. He fights for me.   [bctt tweet="The Lord fights for me - I only have to be silent; be still." username="Liz_Petruzzi"] His plans and timing are perfect. I wait in anticipation and silence. I wait and wonder. He works.…

Kicking Goads

Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. 1 John 4:11 ESV I confess, I can be a bit of a goad kicker - a rebellious, malcontent, goad kicker. Gratitude is not always my natural state. “Why this?” “Why me?” “Why now?” I strive. I don’t like my circumstances and want control over life - in my head, it’s all worked out - God just needs to go along with my plan. Except…He often doesn’t.…

Hope that Holds

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” --Jeremiah 29:11 NIV This is the verse. My verse. The verse I cling to when life doesn’t make sense. I need this verse. I need to know God has a plan for my life – a good plan. I need to know I have hope and a future. (my hope and future…

Temple Tantrums

After the festival was over, while His parents were returning home, the boy Jesus stayed behind in Jerusalem, but they were unaware of it. Thinking He was in their company, they traveled on for a day. Then they began looking for Him among their relatives and friends. When they did not find Him, they went back to Jerusalem to look for Him. After three days they found Him in the temple courts, sitting among the teachers, listening to them and…

Doubting God

“It’s not what you are that is holding you back. It’s what you think you are not.”  --Anonymous  On the outside, I’m a 48 year old wife, mother and Christian. I do all the normal stuff and on a good day, I’m pretty together. On the inside, I often feel like an awkward, insecure, geeky pre-teen. I question myself and God. I question the decisions I make – I must be wrong - I don’t know what I’m doing. Everyone…

God Doesn’t Always Answer Prayer the Way I Want

People ask, “Why didn’t God heal my friend of cancer?” “How can God allow my home to go into foreclosure?” “Why would God not allow me to have a baby?” I don’t know why - I won’t pretend I get it. When someone tries to wrap my pain, my loss in Christian wrapping paper and place a perfect, scripture bow on top, it doesn’t help - it makes me feel alone. I reached out to you, confessed my difficulty and…

Faith Reloaded

“There’s a difference between knowing the path and walking the path.” --Morpheus, The Matrix, 1999 I’m about as unlikely a Matrix fan as you’ll ever meet. I avoid violent movies and in general, I’m not a sci-fi fan. In 2006, I was working as a freelance writer/reporter for a branch of Tribune Communications and wrote an article about a young man who started a paintball ministry to reach teenagers for Christ. His favorite movie was The Matrix and in preparation…