Wilderness Ways

March 27, 2020


Note from Liz:  This is my first post in 8 months – the hardest 8 months of my life. Here’s what I know for sure – God is good and He never lets go. When I am faithless, He is faithful – it says so in His Word – 2 Timothy 2:13. Thank you to my friends, family and readers who encouraged and bugged me to get back to writing. To God be the glory.

Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the desert. Isaiah 43:18-19

Words like new start, a brand new page sound shiny and promising.

Hope filled with excitement.

Except sometimes new start means a wish didn’t come true.

It’s an ending, a tragedy.

Something forced because of someone else’s choices.

Instead of promise, I feel pathetic.

Sad, alone and lost.

I pray and cry.

Recite scripture and agree with God’s Word – He never leaves or forsakes me.

He has hope and a future, restores what locusts ate away.

Locusts who eat everything and leave.

Nothing will ever be the same.

Life torn and scattered.

Dreams destroyed.

How do you breathe in the thin oxygen of now and not yet?

 Christian platitudes won’t help.

I need Christ.

Christ who wept over Lazarus.

Christ whose closest friends betrayed and abandoned Him.

Christ in the garden.

Christ on the cross.

Christ who loved and cried, endured and died.

Died so I could live.

Died to give new life.

A new page.

He understands.

He lived it so He could understand.

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He came to live the worst parts of living.

Because those who suffer are our greatest comfort.

Praise be to the God and Father  of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort who comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. 2 Corinthians 1:3-4

 He is El Roi – the God who sees.

El Shadid – All Sufficient.

Jehovah Rapha – the Lord who heals

Jehovah-Jireh – the Lord who provides

 And the God of all grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will Himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. 1 Peter 5:10

 My marriage of 31 years recently ended. It was an ending I didn’t want.

I wanted restoration.

I wanted a miracle.

In the middle of the end, I realized it wasn’t going to happen and what I hoped and prayed for wouldn’t occur.

It would be okay because God had something better.

I felt it, I knew it.

It was a new chapter of ministry.

Powerful ministry.

This was what the Lord meant in Joel 2:25 when He said, “So I will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten, the crawling locust, and the chewing locust, My great army which I sent among you. You shall eat in plenty and be satisfied, And praise the Name of the Lord your God.”

Except it didn’t happen.

I can guess and explain but the Lord is powerful – when it’s His will doors swing wide but instead they slammed shut.

Some of it was my fault.

Next my son, who I love with all my heart began to have behavior issues.

His behavior was extreme, persistent and refused correction.

The moment came when I understood he could no longer live with me because I became unable to respond in ways that were helpful.

He had to live with his father…in another state.

The event created guilt and shame while I reeled from his absence.

Being a wife and mom is all I’ve known since I was 19 years old.

I couldn’t think or feel.

When the bottom drops out how do you stand?

 I wish I could tell you.

I can’t.

There are days I don’t want to get out of bed – but I do.

I feel numb.

I worship, pray and cry out to God.

I read His Word and go to church.

I love the Lord with all my heart and fight despair that tries to grip it.

I can give you all the right Christian answers.

But night is still here and it’s dark.

I believe morning will come.

I believe God’s promises are true.

I believe He has hope and a future for me…and for you.

I know He is good so that means His ways are too.

I hold onto hope.

I hold onto Jesus.

I believe.

He fights for me. His Word says all I must do is be still and He fights for me.

He fights for you too.

You and I can have hope because He is the living hope.

He who promised is faithful.

I don’t know what God has for me next – I’m still praying, trying to be still and listen.

I’m learning faith doesn’t mean I don’t experience pain, loss or loneliness. It doesn’t mean there aren’t days I sit in the dark.

It means I trust and believe no matter how I feel, He never lets go.

I belong to Him and He never abandons His kids.

It means when I can’t take another step, I let Him carry me, knowing He will.

In my weakness He is strong.

It’s trusting the promises are true even when there’s no evidence they are.

It’s believing He is good – because He is.

The Lord is good, a stronghold in the day of trouble; He knows those who take refuge in Him. Nahum 1:7

 Are you weary?

Have you not heard?

The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth.

He does not faint or grow weary.

His understanding is unsearchable.

He gives power to the faint and to him who has no might He increases strength.

He is gentle and lowly in heart and gives rest for my soul.

When I wait on the Lord, He renews my strength.

Gives me wings like eagles so I can soar.

And I will soar.

In Jesus’ Name, I will soar – He makes a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.

Glory to God.

Father God, Lord Jesus,

 Thank you for who You are. Thank you that You never leave or forsake me. You know every tear and Your love never fails. Thank you Lord for both blessing and trial – by Your wounds I am healed. I choose You, Lord Jesus – Your will, Your way. I give you my pain, my circumstances, my life. I trust You will make my paths straight and turn mourning into dancing. Give me beauty for ashes. You are good, true and I praise you both on the mountain and in the valley. My circumstances and life may change but You never do. Thank you that you are faithful and true. I pray for my friends who like me are walking through difficulty and uncertainty. I pray they feel the loving arms of Your comfort, mercy and grace as they persevere and follow You through the desert and thorn bushes. You are worthy. I love you Father God, I love You Lord Jesus, Adonai, I love you Holy Spirit – In Your Precious Name I pray, Amen.

More about Liz

I'm a free spirit. I hate rules and legalism. I love art and nature, music, the beach and dogs. I like to garden, take pictures and read. I tend to speak my mind and have a rip-the-band-aid -off approach to life. (Brace yourself, this might hurt.)

    1. I cried the whole time I was reading your story as I felt your pain. I and others have walked in your shoes. But God will restore you and give you peace. Your son loves you, make no mistake. He will come back in Gods timing. Praying for you sister in Christ. His love us oh how He loves us. Glad you are back. Your scriptures lift my spirits and helps me to be strong in Christ Jesus. God be with you and comfort you now and forever.

      1. Awww Sonja – thank you. xoxo You are precious to God and to me. Your love, care and support are such a blessing and the very reason the Lord pressed me to share all of this. I’m sorry you also have experienced the pain of divorce – thank you for your words of hope and encouragement. You have ministered to me today sister – may God bless you and your family.

    1. Sometimes the presence and power of Christ’s Holy Spirit enable us to take one more step without falling over. Also part of Isaiah 40:31. Don’t know how many times that reality has kept me going.

      1. Thank you Dave – I have thought of you often during this season and the coffees where you offered me counsel and encouragement. Thank you for being salt and light in my life.

    1. Oh, Liz… I’m so sorry, sweet friend. I’ve not done a great job of staying connected. I’ll email you. And maybe we can chat next week? Love you…miss you.

      1. Hey sweet friend! No worries – I’ve only recently come up for air. Love to connect with you any time! This virus has seemingly messed up when I thought I was moving but I rest assured that God always knew it was coming. In His perfect timing I’m still planning to relocate to Greenville and look forward to having tea in your tiny house. :o) It’s for sure on my list. Love you my friend.

    1. Liz- I am so sorry for all you have been through in this long difficult season. You have been an amazing mom & wife, an amazing friend. I am praying for you as you continue the journey and wish I lived closer so we could cry over a cup of coffee together. Hang in there.❤️🙏🏻🙏🏻

      1. Hi my friend! Thank you for your kind words. God is good! I know you know and I’m learning to rejoice in Him always and to live in what He has for me today. Thank you for your prayers, love and friendship – it sincerely means so much even if we’re not together in person. Love you and thank you for taking the time to reach out and comment – it’s truly a blessing.

    1. Ma’am, am so sorry that you had to go through this. I am yet to marry but I feel your pain. But in all things, we give thanks to God. You are an overcomer and this phase of your life shall surely pass and laughter and joy will fill your life. May the Lord Jesus continue to strengthen you and guide your path in the right direction. It is well with your soul. I love you and appreciate you so much. You are still my mentor and I pray God fulfills all your heart desires in Jesus name. Amen.

      1. Hi Jennifer!

        Thank you for your words – you are a blessing! I love you too sister and am so very thankful for your encouragement. God is good so I know His plans are too. I’m learning to rejoice always. Thank you again sweet friend for being the Lord’s faithful servant and encouraging me today! Love and hugs.

    1. Hello Liz, I read your story, please believe me when I tell you, one day you’ll find beauty in it, one day you’ll look back and thank God for his will, his will not ours, God always knows what’s best and after reading your story, please know it was your husbands loss, not yours and he’ll realize that one day, stay beautiful, stay strong and continue to trust our Lords will, he will NEVER leave us nor forsake us…God Bless you😊❤🙏🙏💕⚘

      1. Thank you. Thank you for your words on a day when I need them. I also made mistakes and it’s so easy in the alone moments to focus on the things I did wrong and wish so much I had another chance…to be better, handle things differently. But I agree with you that God never runs out of plans and His will is sovereign. Either He’s in control or He isn’t. He allowed this and my prayer is it ultimately is for His glory – it pushes me to keep going and stay strong. I want His restoration and to walk in the truth of He makes all things new. Thank you again sister – you blessed me today. xoxo

      1. You’re so very welcome!
        I’m sure you made mistakes, none of us are perfect, but I pray if it’s Gods will, God will bring you someone that will be willing to work things out with God, the 2 of you, to make your 3 way bond strong.

        1. Thank you again Lorna! I pray it’s part of His plan for me and am so thankful for you and the blessing of your words! You really encouraged me. :o)

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